Was it possible that, had he not viewed his life in such terms, Bridie Gargan and Donal Dunne might still be alive?

如果他没有这样看待自己的生活，布莱迪·加根和多纳尔·邓恩可能还活着吗？

His first victim was a nurse, Bridie Gargan, whom he beat to death with a hammer in the process of stealing her car.

他的第一个受害者是一名护士布里迪·加根，他在偷她车的过程中用锤子打死了她。

I asked if he was trying to say that the blows he dealt Gargan were not intended to kill her. He said, at length, the word " no" .

我问他，他的意思是不是他对加根的打击不是为了杀死她。他最后说“不是”。

And then, inexplicably, he trundles off the scene and heads back to the house- not to get help for his friend, but to alert the long-suffering Gargan so he can sort things out.

之后，令人费解的是，他拖着沉重的步伐离开现场回去了——他没有去为自己的朋友求助，而是去提醒临危不乱的加根，让加根想办法。