My situation became every moment more painful; I sustained the character of confidence with a worse grace than ever.

我的处境每时每刻都变得更加痛苦； 我比以往任何时候都更加优雅地保持了自信的性格。

It led to my remarking, with more zeal than discretion, that it came with a bad grace from him, to whom Startop had lent money in my presence but a week or so before.

这导致我以比谨慎更多的热情评论说，这带来了他的坏风度，Startop在我面前借钱给他，大约一周前。