Kitty, in terror of the disease, took it with the feeling not only that she was thus maliciously avenging herself on Walter, but that she was flouting her own desperate fears.

凯蒂对这种疾病感到恐惧， 她觉得自己不仅是在恶意报复沃尔特，而且是在蔑视自己绝望的恐惧。