And if this doesn't work, I'm just going to end it all.要是这个行不通，我就不活了。Sometimes I do the cooking and sometimes John does - so in the end it all balances out.有时候我做饭，有时候约翰做饭—所以最后大家做饭的次数是差不多的。He grew suicidal, thinking up ways to end it all.他萌生了自杀的念头，想出各种自我了断的办法。