Matthew defines himself as a " pretty private person" , so being in front of an audience of 30 million people while he was trying to control his drinking, added to his negative feelings.

马修认为自己是一个 “非常注重隐私的人”。因此，当他努力戒掉酗酒习惯时，却要面对3000万观众，这让他的情绪更加低落。