She had found it occasionally tiresome while it lasted; but since then she had been buffeted about, and felt so exhausted by this recent struggle with herself, that she thought that even stagnation would be a rest and a refreshment.

她发现它偶尔会让人厌烦。但从那时起，她就被打击了，最近与自己的斗争使她感到筋疲力尽，以至于她认为即使是停滞也会休息和恢复活力。