I set down the watering pot, and with no thought of help for my distress, for I was past helping, let out shriek after shriek of sheer indulgent frustration.

我放下喷壶，没有想过帮助我的痛苦，因为我已经没有帮助了，发出一声又一声的尖叫，完全是放纵的挫败感。