The first month of motherhood was really terrifying because I was scared to fuck it all up.

成为母亲的第一个月真的很可怕，因为我害怕把一切搞砸。

We used to go out. And then l fucked it up royally. Lost the best thing l ever had.

然后我搞砸了 失去了最珍贵的东西。

It's not that he gives zero fucks, it's just that he knows what matters to him and, just as importantly, what doesn't.

并不是说他对他妈的是零，只是他知道什么对他很重要， 同样重要的是， 什么不重要。